“Every Song on this Album is a Love Song of Some Kind:” Hip-Hop Artist Mystic Chats About New Album

A mixed race African American woman with curly brown hair wears olive green shirt and poses for photo
Mandolyn "Mystic" Ludlum. Photo by Taj Williams/ Vizualzen

Mandolyn “Mystic” Ludlum, a longtime Oakland resident and Bay Area native, released her first solo album 20 years ago. In August, she released her third solo album, titled “Dreaming In Cursive: The Girl Who Loved Sparklers.” A member of Digital Underground and veteran hip-hop artist, Ludlum has contributed vocals for rap group Conscious Daughters, hosted her own podcast, left music to become an educator, and received a Master’s Degree from Oxford University.  

The list of accomplishments includes a Grammy nomination for W” featuring Planet Asia from “Cuts for Luck and Scars for Freedom” (2001) and is a Governor on the San Francisco Chapter Board of the Recording Academy. Ludlum recently submitted tracks from the new album for Grammy consideration.

For 38 minutes, the new album includes not only songs, but affirmations and conversations. The album was produced with longtime collaborator Walt “Liquor” Taylor. Each track sets an intention to lead with love.

After a successful fundraising campaign, the album will be accompanied by a short film, “A Black Love Trilogy,” co-directed and co-written by Lan “Yellow” Nguyen. “A Black Love Trilogy” will contain three videos from the album “Dreaming In Cursive.”

The prevailing themes for the album are varying forms of love: romantic love, love for oneself, and love of community. The process for the album began in 2018 when Mystic was stretching her educational journey at Oxford University, during a time when nationally in politics, it felt as if the rights for people of color were being stripped away.  

A conversation with Mystic starts with a gentle reminder to find healing and love for something other than ourselves, as well as a reminder about climate change and a love for the planet. “To have the entire state in a heat wave at the same time, I’m hoping that it is really a not so gentle reminder to people that we can’t go back and to restart in connection about this climate crisis,” Ludlum told Oakland Voices.

We chatted with the Grammy-nominated recording artist about being intentional about love and the journey to get to a place of finding her inner child. This is an edited and abridged version of the conversation for clarity. 

An album cover with an African American woman holding up sparklers in the dark outdoors, with the words "Dreaming in Cursive"
The cover of Mystic’s new album, “Dreaming In Cursive.” Artwork by DJ Roddy Rod and photo by Taj Williams/Vizualzen.

Let’s start with the album, “Dreaming In Cursive: The Girl Who Loved Sparklers.” Talk me through the concept.

I smile every time someone says the title. The deepest way to understand the title conceptually is to listen to “Dreaming Out Loud (Outro).” For me, this started to come together as I started to think about what I had been creating conceptually and started thinking about titles. 

Every song on this album is a love song of some kind — a love song for self, a love song for women, for men, for Mother Earth, personal love, romantic love. And I started thinking about how much this music represents where I am in my healing journey, how much I return to the child who I once was, before I started to experience trauma. 

The title in some ways is really about reclaiming myself as a Black woman which is also reclaiming myself as that beautiful and traumatized child. 

I’m glad you mentioned the reclaiming of the child because in the greetings, the intro starts, you can hear children playing. Was that intentional?

This is absolutely intentional and I am really encouraging people to listen to the album as a body of art, at least once in sequence. 

Anything that you hear on a body of art that I create is intentional, and I decided that I wanted the sound of children laughing and playing.

Children are the most brilliant reminders that the world is still a beautiful place, even with everything else that’s going on. And they’re also so much about love, justice, people, friends and our connections. I really believe that hearing the sounds of children makes us, somewhere on a subconscious level, feel safe and warm and good.

So then you also hear at the very end at that closing track, the outro — what you actually end with is not children laughing, but it’s actually a deep sigh.

I guess you could say a sigh of contentment. It’s also the kind of closure of this particular offering, and after that sigh, then you do just hear children, so I am not the first nor the last thing that we hear on the album.

It’s interesting to go through the journey of this album which is your third solo album — what I was hearing was a mix of spoken word and affirmation. Was that the intention? From the perspective I was getting as a listener, it felt very much affirmational.

I picked the first track in 2018. It was part of a collection of music that Walt Liquor gave me to listen to before I headed off to Oxford. If we think about 2018 who was president, if we think about what was happening in our streets, if we think about — I don’t want to say resurgence — but the rising profile of white supremacy and white nationalism that was happening. 

So much of what we are bombarded with — as women, as young people as, as men as people who don’t identify within a gender binary — so much of it is telling us that we’re not worthy, that we’re not beautiful, that individualism is where we should be. 

The creative process for this piece feels like it took a long time, especially in a time where people are pumping out albums at random intervals. What was it like to take your time with something over a number of years and really pace yourself? 

It’s not foreign for me. “Beautiful Resistance,” the title track to that album, was recorded in 2004. That album wasn’t released till 2014. Life continues to happen while you are in the process of creating art or creating albums.

There’s something really beautiful about taking your time. I think that there’s something particularly, maybe about the state of the world and about being young and also maybe feeling like your life is in danger [because of] a variety of oppressive systems, “your opps” as they call them, that you constantly produce.

People talk about Tupac Amaru Shakur. Those who knew him and loved him about how he was always created. It was like, he knew he didn’t necessarily have a lot of time here.

Part of the way that Walter and I created was all about making dope art and we would talk about that. That’s why creators create. It was simply about making dope art and then once it was done it’s done.

We are all still creatives in some form or fashion and we all have to show up to the work in the way that feels authentic to us. Otherwise we are producing just to produce.

And I think that’s not sustainable. I imagine you love being a writer. I also love being a writer of poems and songs. It’s who I am. I love it and you love what you do. Like I don’t want to fall out of love. I don’t want to ruin my love with being creative, with being an artist. I feel like then I would block off what can flow through me.

I was thinking about your track, “Unguarded (Still).” You repeat throughout “I refuse to apologize.” It’s not necessarily a refusal or a rejection. It’s a refusal to be apologetic for loving something. I wanted you to talk me through that one specifically.

That is a poem that I wrote for the man that “Still (Love)” is about. “Unguarded (Still)” is a real poem that I wrote and then I sent to him. It was written at least a couple years before I even started picking music for the album. 

I am not going to put walls around my heart and I am not I’m not going to do any of these things. Why would I apologize for falling in love with you? I didn’t get here on my own. And that’s what we hear in “Still (Love).” 

For “Unguarded (Still), it’s not created to fit into a concept. I wrote that poem in tears and feeling fiercely resilient. As a woman who loves you, I will not apologize for that. I will not destroy myself, but I also will not apologize. I learned deep deep lessons through the relationship with the man that was written about in “Still (Love).”

You have a “A Black Love Trilogy.” What’s the plan and the vision for that? 

We — being myself, Walter and Guy [Routte] — started having conversations about how this is going to come out through to my label Beautifull Soundworks.

So we pick out “Butter (Green Light),” “Still (Love)” and “Always Love (Always)” and I start thinking about connecting these together and telling one cohesive story.

It is three music videos. They will serve as standalone music videos for those songs, but they will also be a short film. It explores what I call walking into love, not falling into love. I no longer talk about “falling in love.” I talk about it as walking into love, this intentional journey that you decide to take with someone where you don’t fall. You walk and you don’t end up somewhere where you didn’t intend to be.

You did this fundraising, and where is “A Black Love Trilogy” now in terms of release?

I have an amazing, amazing crew and so we are in post-production for all three of the videos. We’re not just going to put three music videos back to back together. There are transitions in them. There is a story that’s being told. There are voiceovers.

“A Black Love Trilogy” is also part of my quest to have “Dreaming In Cursive: The Girl Who Loved Sparklers” as an album as a body of art and connect with all of our senses. 

There is a recipe that has been designed for every song on the album. I have a desire for people to have this real lived experience. You can see it, you can smell it, and you can taste it and you can hear it. It moves your heart and to do that all at the same time. And not limit who I am as a creative spirit.

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“Dreaming In Cursive: The Girl Who Loved Sparklers” is available on all streaming platforms. To keep up with what Mystic is working on Instagram or her website

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Brandy Collins is a writer and public services advocate born and raised in the Bay Area. She is a 2019-2020 cohort graduate from Oakland Voices, a blogger, and the funny one in numerous group chats. She is concerned with civic engagement and leadership development toward making public works more efficient for the people. Brandy is full of Scorpio magic and self-proclaimed Professional Aunty. Follow her on Twitter @msbrandycollins or Instagram @story_soul_collecter.

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